The blog helped me get happy during a very unhappy time. I'm in another unhappy time and maybe it will help again. I think that's why I've kept the blog unlike so many of the blog friends I had during my first couple of years. I was reading some old entries the other day and I talked about "good blog friends" who I don't remember--and when I clicked the links to refresh my memory, their blogs were gone. I also see that I'm learning the same lessons over and over. When I get right up close to something--be it a boy or a job--I can't see clearly at all. At least that hasn't changed. I have good decision making tools but I fail to apply them to myself. In life, you don't get a counter factual.
Often I can see clearly what a friend should do. So I've talked to a lot of friends about this job decision.
Alicia: you're miserable. Take the new job. Your personal happiness is more important than other considerations.
Nancy: you're miserable. You're bored. You're scared. Take the new job.
Diego: you've worked hard to get where you are. Stay and see if the detail to TR helps. Leave in six months if it doesn't. Ask the new job to give you more time.
ER: spend some time thinking. Make a list (done!). You can stay and use the six months to figure out what you really want to do.
Dad: you have two good options. You can't go wrong.
I desperately want someone to tell me what to do. Two friends have done exactly that. Why don't I listen to them? Are the others just being gentle and telling me what I want to hear? I know I'm not bored. Scared, a little, but both options are scary!
Why is this so difficult?
Grateful for: a place to think this through.