Saturday, May 07, 2011

Still here

I tell you what, this week was crazy. I fought a lot with my boss, I worried about my old boss, I did some work, I did some work-avoiding. I went SALSA DANCING for the first time in who knows how long. I had lunch with Pele and baby. I tried to play with the cat--she just lay there and stared at me. I thoroughly brushed the cat while she swatted at me with her sharp claws.  (Maybe that counts as exercise for her?). I went to the farmer's market this morning and had a verbal altercation with a dude parked in my lot. I am an idiot.

Too many of my stories are about how I got angry about something. I'm tired of being so frustrated all the time. I'm going to start rising above. I will rise above. I will stop fighting with my boss, I will interact with her less and tell her less and do a good job anyway and pretend like she's leaving me alone even if she's not. I'll keep on knitting and start going to the gym again. I'm already walking around and biking more and I'm not sick and my feet don't hurt, so I have high hopes for improved fitness.

Really, it's all going to be ok.

Grateful for: the future.


  1. My boss has been up to a bunch more crap since you were here, and I've been focusing on it a lot, partly trying to change things, but it still ends up with me spending too much of my energy on it and feeling victim-y. Now when she does things that are pretty minor, I'm so activated that I get totally derailed. I've been trying to just be curious about what weird thing she'll do next, but I have to find some more advanced buddhist ways to let it go. So yeah, I commend the attempt to rise above.

  2. Amanda--I just don't know how to deal with these bad bosses. With mine, since she wanted to know everything, I tried to tell her everything. If anything, it made things worse. Now I'm going with "less is more" and wondering if that will help. I hope you can find some thing to distract you! It's no fun thinking about work stuff all the time.


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