Soccer season is fast approaching. The first game is in three weeks.
I'm dreading it. Last season was ok, barely. We hardly ever had a full team. Most games, I played all of both halves and I just didn't have the fitness for it. I was completely exhausted by the end of the game and sometimes limping (silly knee). (I have ramped up my exercise this week, but I still may not be in decent shape for the start of the season.) I have no idea if we'll get a better turnout this season. If I knew we would, I'd be more likely to sign up. But I don't know. We still don't have good leadership and I fear that we will be in the same boat. I don't know why the league didn't assign us more players but whatever went wrong may still be wrong. I feel kind of bad because if I don't play then I'm contributing to the problem. Still, it hasn't been much fun for me. So, I made a list of pros and cons....
I think "not fun" is the deal breaker. Why do anything that is actually negative fun? I never, ever look forward to the games. Sometimes, I enjoy the game. I like saying I play...but so what? My life isn't about impressing people with my athletic prowess (thank goodness!).
I think I know what to do. Maybe play again in the summer/fall season. Take swing dance lessons again--I enjoy that. Make hiking once a week a regular thing. I can get up early for soccer, so I can get up early for hiking. . Now I just need to find hiking companions (I do know about the groups out there) and I'm all set.
Damn. Why do I still feel guilty about quitting soccer? Sigh.
Grateful for: this awesome webpage that helped me create the table.
I'm dreading it. Last season was ok, barely. We hardly ever had a full team. Most games, I played all of both halves and I just didn't have the fitness for it. I was completely exhausted by the end of the game and sometimes limping (silly knee). (I have ramped up my exercise this week, but I still may not be in decent shape for the start of the season.) I have no idea if we'll get a better turnout this season. If I knew we would, I'd be more likely to sign up. But I don't know. We still don't have good leadership and I fear that we will be in the same boat. I don't know why the league didn't assign us more players but whatever went wrong may still be wrong. I feel kind of bad because if I don't play then I'm contributing to the problem. Still, it hasn't been much fun for me. So, I made a list of pros and cons....
| Pros | Cons |
|---|---|
| Likely to go, due to group aspect | Not fun |
| Social | Feel bad, due to lack of skill |
| Outdoors | Have other more interesting things to do |
I think "not fun" is the deal breaker. Why do anything that is actually negative fun? I never, ever look forward to the games. Sometimes, I enjoy the game. I like saying I play...but so what? My life isn't about impressing people with my athletic prowess (thank goodness!).
I think I know what to do. Maybe play again in the summer/fall season. Take swing dance lessons again--I enjoy that. Make hiking once a week a regular thing. I can get up early for soccer, so I can get up early for hiking. . Now I just need to find hiking companions (I do know about the groups out there) and I'm all set.
Damn. Why do I still feel guilty about quitting soccer? Sigh.
Grateful for: this awesome webpage that helped me create the table.
I just got suckered into singing in a choir festival on Sunday. For the good of the group I had to say YES. Fortunately I enjoy singing and I never come away limping any worse than when I started!
ReplyDeleteYou shouldn't do something you don't enjoy out of a feeling of obligation.