Tuesday, June 30, 2009


I need the strength to stay late at work. Not because I have lots to do but because I desperately need more vacation time. I can earn more by working later and saving up those hours to add to my leave. I can only accrue 24 of these extra hours, but it sure couldn't hurt.

I need to go to Seattle. I want to go. I want to stay for at least a week. I don't have that much vacation time. I have three days right now. But I dislike being in this office so much that it's really hard for me to stay late. What in the world will I do? Oh, right, unpack. Off I go...

I did stay until 7pm last night, despite being very tired. I even walked home. It was hot but not too hot. Ate dinner, did some knitting. Went to bed around 11:30pm and was WIDE AWAKE. I could not fall asleep.

Usually, I'm asleep 10-20 minutes after I lie down--occasionally, 30 minutes. The only time I have trouble sleeping is the night before a trip--annoyingly almost any trip, so moving to Paris for six months vs. going to New Jersey for two days have about an equal chance of messing up my sleep. But last night, I think I was up for at least two hours before I feel asleep. I suppose, well, I know what I'm anxious about, I guess, though it's way in the back of my mind and really shouldn't cause wakefulness, but that's not how it works, is it?

So, another tired day at the office. Reading boring things, unpacking boxes (one down today already) and staying late, if possible. Sigh.

Grateful for

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