Wednesday, May 20, 2009


I have been working at work today, for the most part. I am trying to finish reading a document that has languished on my desk for weeks. I'm about 75% done with it, so good, but my eyes started to glaze over and I got restless so I thought, why not blog?

I don't know why focus is such a big issue for me these days. Ok, I know, I hate my job. (Stop staying that!) I'm in a permanent holding pattern here--but enough, already. I can't just sit here and do nothing but answer emails and expound. Even if it's only half-assed, I need to move some of these lingering projects off my desk. It's a process, it will take time, but I can do it.

It does help that I'm not in a fog of sadness and self-pity anymore. On the boy-social front, I feel pretty good. Annoyed that Curt hasn't called, but whatever. I'm sure I'll hear from him or I'll call him or...maybe it just won't work out--that's fine. I am a little worried about getting crushed again but my feelings aren't particularly crushing. Perhaps that's a function of our previous friendship? I don't know.

I got email this morning from Kent. Fast! And it was a long email too--even in our heyday I rarely got an email this long. And in it, he wishes me well, is glad that I have a "nice bloke" in my life and hopes that "everything works out" for me. Well. I say. I don't quite know what to make of all the well-wishes. I am touched and a bit reassured that he really is who I think he is: a very good guy. Now, we'll have to see if this new bloke of mine is as good. I guess I hope I get a chance to find out.

I'm going to put in another solid half hour and get out of here with enough time to enjoy a little sunshine. You do the same now, ok?

Grateful for: spring.

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