Sunday, June 02, 2013

Battle

It's a real battle between my lethargy and my desire to take my new bike on a ride. This morning, I fell into my frequent weekend pattern of a little light puttering (laundry, kitchen clean up, dining room table mess-sorting), and watching some Netflix. I know it's dangerous to start the TV watching, but when I combine it with knitting and a little online shopping (new bike pump--the old one won't work with the new bike), it's like an inescapable vortex. I usually don't stint myself a lazy day--I do it pretty frequently--and I tend to rouse myself around 3 or 4 and go on a little walk or something. But today, I had a plan and I didn't stick to it. I even fell asleep while watching TV. I wondered why I was so tired...and I thought, maybe it's because I've had nothing to eat and only a little water to drink. So, I managed to hit up the local cafe for a sandwich and coffee and it's just...2pm. Sigh. This is why I love the long summer days.

[Time passes.]

I made it! Took a long bike ride, had some gelato and a sandwich (I eat out all the time!), and went to a movie, Before Midnight. I loved the last one in the series--Before Sunset--and I avoided reading all the reviews. I didn't want to have any expectations. Well, I had expectations and they were met. It was like I was spending time with old friends and I was so happy to be there. I don't want to think about it too much but I liked the movie a lot.

When I came out it was raining. I hadn't decided if I'd ride all the way home (that would've been another 12 miles) but I decided to hop on the metro instead. Just my luck, due to track work, the train only took me a little more than halfway home, so I rode the rest of the way. I was lucky that the rain had stopped by then. The new bike is fantastic but it doesn't have fenders yet, which means riding in the rain is a messy proposition. It was still a little dirty from the puddles, but not too bad. My total for the day was about 17 miles and I feel pretty good. I think I will sleep well tonight.

Time for a bit of relaxing and reconciling myself to getting back to the grind tomorrow.

Grateful for: winning the battle.

PS I should note that yesterday I did a volunteer thing in the morning. Every single dude I talked to was married--like five dudes! Sheesh. Actually, I went to a happy hour on Thursday related to the volunteer event, and all the guys I talked to there were married too. Later in the afternoon, I had a date. He was ok, but not for me and also too young. And maybe a little...I don't know...not my intellectual equal. Not necessarily required, but given that he lives in Baltimore County, not worth the effort. Well, at least I'm trying, kinda sorta. I'm super discouraged about the extreme lack of romance in my life but I don't know what to do about it. I figure work is taking up all of my headspace and I don't really have the energy for dating, but I miss it. I miss having a boyfriend. I sure hope it's not the end of my dating life, but I wonder. My mom basically stopped dating altogether when she wasn't much older than I am now. I think she gave up and probably had some options, but I don't know. Is that my fate? Maybe I'm just being gloomy--people older than me and less attractive (and more attractive) are still engaged in romantic endeavors, so there is probably still hope for me. Maybe I just need to try a little harder to get in a hopeful state of mind. In the meantime, I'm going to pursue my hobbies and enjoy my independence and maybe the rest will take care of itself.

2 comments:

  1. Dying to see that movie. Hopefully this weekend. Have to get hubby to watch the first two, which may be a battle -- better course may be to go solo or find a friend who loved the first two as much as I did.
    Anon11

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    1. Just go see it! I'm not sure how great a movie it is for couples since a lot of it centers around [SPOILER] a huge argument...but I still loved it.

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