Wow. I am the least productive person in the world this week, at least as far as work is concerned. I feel sort of bad. Given that I don’t hate my job these days, it’s funny that I have no work ethic this week. Heck, I’m not even Christian! But it’s so quiet here, which is lovely, it’s rather relaxing, and Nancy has been dragging me out for epic lunch/shopping trips (I’m a willing participant!), getting in the work groove is decidedly not on.
Plus, I’m feeling gloomy. Missing Kent, which is ridiculous. But then, maybe it’s because at exactly this time last year, we were spending our final days together. Maybe that’s why I’m so sad when I think about him (instead of looking back fondly). I need to completely block him out for now. I have an email of his waiting for a reply but I can’t bring myself to answer (it pre-dates our recent phone call, but it deserves an answer). I could go on and on about this but why don’t I stop? It’s making me sad all over again.
As to work, I’m not doing it and I guess that will just have to be ok this week. I will try and read something as soon as I finish writing this.
On my day off, on Monday, I went to see Up in the Air. I think I’d vaguely heard it had a serious side. Did it ever—but not until I was lulled into a false sense of happiness and resolution. Then WHAM. Disaster, sadness, despair. Really not what I was looking for. (It was good and I recommend it but the ending was kind of a bummer.) Very glad I didn’t go see this alone on all-alone-in-the-world-poor-me Christmas Day. Sheesh. Like that time Mom and I went to see Lost in Translation on the High Holidays. It was discombobulating.
Anyway, for x-mas, I’d like something purely escapist. I was thinking It’s Complicated. But, oy, so relationship-y. I don’t want romance or comedy. Maybe the new Sherlock Holmes. I think I will hate the way it deals with women but I will love the crazed Robert Downy version of Holmes and perhaps that will be enough. I am open to your suggestions, however.
Grateful for: new movies.