Thursday, August 06, 2009

Today is the day

I'm heading back to DC today and not a moment too soon. Tuesday was a bit of a disappointment. I was hoping to see Amanda or Audrey but neither could break free from their daily grind. I understand but I could have lived with a little less alone time with Mom.

Ah, Mom. Mostly, we did well on this visit. She got angry at me, I got annoyed with her. Last night, though, it got unpleasant. We were driving (I was driving) to meet a friend of hers for dinner and I was in a good mood and being chatty. Mom wasn't interested in listening to me or participating in a conversation. She criticized my driving technique (not because it was bad, but because it wasn't her way). So, the evening started on a sour note. We managed not to fuss too much at dinner but the drive home was a different matter.

She fussed about my driving again, I made a snappy reply and it was all over. She said, "Let's just stop talking now!" That made me furious. After one last outburst, I shut up--pretty much for the rest of the evening. I just can't stand always having to be the one "rising above." Is it completely impossible for her to apologize? In this case, she started snapping at me, ignoring me when I was trying to talk and making stupid remarks about my driving. Was that really necessary? And given that I didn't take it well, could she not have stopped? No. She could keep it up and then blame me for always being annoyed.

Yes, I do get annoyed. I wish I didn't. I wish Mom didn't get cranky or take out her frustrations on me. Unfortunately, I can't always control myself in these situations. What situations? The ones where I'm required to be more mature than my parent. I know I am old and they are even older and I need to be patient. I will try, I will try, I will try.

I am so ready to get back and sleep in my own bed tonight. No matter the allure of Seattle, the charm and comfort of my own home is even greater.

Grateful for: home.

PS I have some more pics and a list of interesting restaurants to visit in Seattle--I'll get that up in the next day or two.

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