- Exhibit an inability to empty dishwasher/clean kitchen
- Cut oneself on tin can in sink (see above)
- Leave heavy coat at office
- Have anxiety dream about upcoming party
Ok, it's not that bad. Today, because I was busy, I was productive and I started to like my job again. Not love, but like is quite an improvement. I also had a nice long chat with my office buddy, TR. I miss talking to him. Used to talk a lot more when we were officemates. It's probably better that we don’t share the office anymore. We still get some chatting in when we walk home together once or twice a week. The last couple of weeks, TR's been home a lot with sick kids so I haven't had a chance to talk to him. Today, we chatted about work, but I also launched into my usual "why am I single" lament. It's not really that pathetic. We joke around and he makes fun of me. Sometimes he even gives me useful advice. I was still recovering from my little bout with the Tuesday blues, and I told him Jake's flight, an abbreviated version. TR said, "It's not just you, people are getting married at older ages." I said I knew (the demographer in me knows). What I didn't say was, it's cold comfort knowing that one is part of a larger demographic trend. Knowing doesn't help.
It's hard when I finally think I know what I want, but then, I read things (like this pretty good and interesting blog) where a guy lists that one of his deal breakers is a woman without out kids who wants kids. He says that auditioning for "father" is too much while auditioning for "husband." It just feels so unfair. I'm penalized because I know that I want kids? I can't get into a long-term relationship with someone who knows he doesn't want kids--that's one of my deal breakers. The guy isn't auditioning for anything. Who thinks about it like that? He does have a point about deal breakers, though. First, the fewer the better and second, you better know damn well what they are.
I'm grateful that not everyone thinks like this. I hope.